Sunday, December 19, 2010

Why Life Why..UNFORGETTABLE SCARS!

WHY LIFE WHY?..... AN ENTRY FROM MY PERSONAL DIARY!
Nineteenth December,2010

 

As I reach out to catch you,why do you always deceive me life.?..Not once but so many a times! I don't even have time to complain-actually you don't  give me time..you have tied me down to such responsibilities that,I can't even weep at my miseries and pain! My mom passed away but you did not allow me to attend her funeral as you thought ,I was lucky enough to see her pale, tranquilized dead body,out of the chains of painful bondage! You thought,this was a big gift to me as you  had once made me to attend my father's funeral but  had stopped me from having the last look as my train got delayed by hours and hours...... You thought I was lucky enough to fly down to see my mom's cold ,serene lifeless body, longing my last looks... So attending the funeral was useless...thankfully the Plane was not delayed and I was lucky enough to afford the ticket(but  ironically with a return ticket of the same day)!!

So many times affection too beckoned me but just to tantalize me..no sooner did I think it to be a drop of holy water, it turned out to be putrid deadly droplets............

Can you explain me life,why do you always play games with me?Don't I too deserve a pearl from the million shiny beads in your ocean of happiness!

Now when I have feathers to fly, I don't have a Destination!  Now when I have cut the chains, I don't have the shoulders, where I can run rest my throbbing head! Can't you for a while turn the clock back and give my Destination along with my Feathers! I wish you could do so but I know you can't!GO LIFE GO-I FORGIVE YOU! I AM MORE MAGNANIMOUS THAN YOU! BE HAPPY TO BE A MISER AND STINGY! 

Image Source:  http://photos.ibibo.com/photo/3911679/manns-lost-love-world


 GO! BUT THOUGH I MIGHT FORGIVE YOUR GIFTED WOUNDS I WILL NEVER FORGET THE SCARS!
TO FEEL THE TRUTH OF THIS DIARY ENTRY,MUST READ:
 http://rrashmi211.blogspot.com/2009/08/oceans-of-loneliness-standing-near.html
 
 rashmi.
Listen to the song below which has worked as a "HEALING TOUCH" for me!

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4 comments:

shivani said...

sry to hear about ur loss...it will take time and u should be able to move on.
Cry if u have to...feel angry if you have to but the pain will diminish...Life goes on...and u will learn to accept that unfairness is also a part and parcel of life.
Hugs take care

rashmi singh said...

Thanks Shivani for your hugs and care.Sometimes i let my hair loose and go haywire but it is required to make my mind clutter free- i have already accepted everything and moved away fro all the negativity but sometimes they try to engulf me and that is the time i find my diary my best friend!Thanks once again for being there and understanding!

mini said...

:)Life has its mysterious ways..

Anonymous said...

May I know who is this in picture?

http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_sQhZ2P-JFvg/TQ4SkQlqveI/AAAAAAAABE0/oXhKivJAzYA/s1600/manns-lost-love-world.jpeg

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